These days I am under the wraps of stress as recently I have started working as a freelancer so this means less sleep and more work not only that my daughter has graduated from baby to toddler now she needs my time more and entertainment I have to teach her so many things plus I have endless house chores (I have recently shifted to a new place still kind of adjusting as I am not good with change). With a million things going around every day is a struggle. My mind is working 24/7 even in sleep, I make tomorrow’s to-do list.
So yesterday, when I took my daughter for a playdate there a mother asked me if I was doing okay as I looked pale, it hit me then since last month I am jiggling around things, I am forgetting things more often, dropping and breaking things, bumping into strangers with a stroller on their feet! In short, I am in great stress.
I know I am a bit clumsy but this, this flailing person is not me.
After coming home from playdate I put my daughter to sleep. I took shower, made a cup of coffee and sat on the sofa and switched off. I absorbed myself in a world, in a life, that was not about the internet, work or even about people. Just about me.
Sometimes I forget that I exist on my own.
When you genuinely enjoy what you do, your office is also your home, the line between work and downtime often gets very blurry.
I am always good at creating a balance between work and home or I was but this self-employment thing is new to me and I am getting carried away.
I think sometimes we do not realize, even if we love something, it can also be stressful for us.
Life is not about working yourself to the ground. It is not about constantly seeking more. It is about good health and less stress; it is about happiness. Do not let your ambition blind you. Let it guide you, challenge you, but do not let it bind you to everything else around you.